Catchup at the Cottage
Yall! It has been so long since I have written a post and I miss it! So real talk. life got me down hard in December and January. we had family come it visit and I was stressed about that even though they are all wonderful amazing people. but I'm the "perfect" hostess. so I stress. then after everyone left and went back to their respective homes I crashed. hard. down a dark hole of grief and depression. did I go to a doctor? no. why? because I sensed it would pass. I still had a tiny bit of fight in me and I knew that this too would pass. I tucked my fight away for the time when I had the emotional energy to stoke it. and slept for days. I stayed in bed and did nothing. I watched tv, playing video games, and read my bible. and that is it. the part that hurt the most during all this was the only person who was there for me was my husband. my friends out of town knew what was going on but couldn't come (which I will never be upset with them for). but my "group"(unsure what to call them without giving away identity's. ) was nowhere. no calls. no visits. no texts. no one but my husband cared. we were alone in a sea of selfish people who have no sense of kindness or friendship.
This downward spiral continued another month. and the only thing I could look forward to was a visit back home. but I did have that, I had a hope of a week of family and friends who love and care about me. Hope is a powerful emotion. whoever says hope is useless ahs never had hope bring them out of the dark. Has never had hope shine the light of the future into their dark present.
March came and I spent my week at home. I enjoyed the laughter, the baby cuddles, the food, and embraces of love. and I rested I a way I didn't know I needed. Then I took my little flame of fight out and I let her shine!
She and I had a battle ahead of us and we were going to win!
I came back to my home of husband and we talked, and talked and talked. and realized the only logical solution was to escape. escape from the emotional abuse both of us were experiencing at the hands of so-called friends. at the hands of an entire city ( sounds dramatic but trust me it's not).
April came and we researched and decided and started making the plans to get out of dodge. By May we had the house packed and loaded and drove to our new home. Raleigh, North Carolina.
It's been almost 2 months and we are still in love with the city. Everyone here has been so welcoming, and nice and friendly I feel like we've been here for years! I will do a post soon on our visit when we decided to move here.
But till then know. We are Happy. We are Emotionally healthy again. and We are living our best life.
Talk to Yall later!
This downward spiral continued another month. and the only thing I could look forward to was a visit back home. but I did have that, I had a hope of a week of family and friends who love and care about me. Hope is a powerful emotion. whoever says hope is useless ahs never had hope bring them out of the dark. Has never had hope shine the light of the future into their dark present.
March came and I spent my week at home. I enjoyed the laughter, the baby cuddles, the food, and embraces of love. and I rested I a way I didn't know I needed. Then I took my little flame of fight out and I let her shine!
She and I had a battle ahead of us and we were going to win!
I came back to my home of husband and we talked, and talked and talked. and realized the only logical solution was to escape. escape from the emotional abuse both of us were experiencing at the hands of so-called friends. at the hands of an entire city ( sounds dramatic but trust me it's not).
April came and we researched and decided and started making the plans to get out of dodge. By May we had the house packed and loaded and drove to our new home. Raleigh, North Carolina.
It's been almost 2 months and we are still in love with the city. Everyone here has been so welcoming, and nice and friendly I feel like we've been here for years! I will do a post soon on our visit when we decided to move here.
But till then know. We are Happy. We are Emotionally healthy again. and We are living our best life.
Talk to Yall later!